Our house feels like a toxic environment right now. There is clutter, dust, cat fur, paper… everywhere. The basement smells awful. Whether it is damp carpet mold or cat pee or poo I don’t know. It’s impossible to tell because there is junk everywhere. Everything looks dirty and unpleasant. There are stains on the floor and the carpets. Even my room is a mess. It has been almost the entire summer. I just want to throw everything away. I hate having so much stuff. I feel bogged down just being here, but I have nowhere else to go. In the past I’ve made a project of organizing the kitchen cabinets, the bathroom drawers, clearing out the third bedroom, getting rid of bunch of dumpy mattresses that were just sitting in the living room. Even though I’ve done so much it doesn’t seem like I’ve made a dent in anything.

And, there is a never any food I want to eat.